Neverland

After graduating from high school, I went home, read a chapter of Winnie the Pooh and took a nap. That marked the beginning of summer.

Now, I've quit my job, I'm all moved out, and college starts on Tuesday. Summer is over (I have to face it) and I suppose I'm supposed to be all grown up now. Which means facing reality.

....

Honestly though...

I kinda just wanna pull a Peter Pan, fly across the world, have adventures, and never worry a thing about money or scholarships or whether or not I actually have to do everything my professor stated in the syllabus to succeed in their class.

I want to go to Neverland.

Why is it called Neverland? Why can't it be called Foreverland or Sometimesland? Why NEVER?

Is it because it's full of things that COULD never happen or things that WILL never happen?

Because I have so many things that I want to happen and I'm afraid they never will. I want to travel Europe, but I have no idea how I would pay for it. I want to see the Northern lights, run a marathon, go on a mission, spend a day as a street performer, and maybe find a man of my dreams who would do some of it with me. Most of all though I want to start (or be a large part of) some sort of service organization that could really change people's lives, particularly in third world countries.

That is my fairytale-my Neverland.

But it all seems so impossible.

And frankly. That sucks.